i wonder.... am i the first girl is this world who is totally ignored by her bf on their first valentine's day? even if it does clash with the chinese new year and he has to visit his relatives, while i went on a "date" with my girl-friends.

he doesn't even reply my sms, well it was meant to be a mass sending sms but still....
a reply would be nice. i feel so stupid, kept hoping for a miracle but nothing happened in the end.

finally at around 11+pm last night, he called me. not because he miss me or anything, it was because i was ignoring him on msn (i'm angry with him at the moment...) and he doesn't even sound apologetic at all, he sound like it just any other day.

i end the call pretty much like 5 mins later because i need to do something for my dad, and later on msn gave him the excuse that i'm going to sleep; i have no mood to entertain him (i have tried very hard to keep the disappointment out of my voice & messages, i don't want to ruin anybody else's day)

what am i suppose to do??? i don't want to ruin our relationship but i can't find any other way to let out my feelings so i decide to create this blog. anybody can help me???

prayers to god and thank you for answering my one prayer. i will remember what i promise thy. i will stay good from now on.

sincerely
upset=(