I really dono to be sad or to be angry.

I was quite proud that i only slept 2 hours last night so i actually finished up a few stuff but it seems just not good enough.

Had a very big fall today, fell the the stairs at Theatre @ Moberly. it was painful at that moment but better later just got 2 huge bruises. i tot it was alright until much later where my back suddenly has this stinging pain for a few seconds. this got me super worried now, and my leg is aching also especially the knee there. i'm so scared that there will be problems.

and today the games for the prep camp was totally trashed down by the facils. it feels like all the hard work was wasted. but at the very least we came up with a few more games which we felt that they are not bad. and thanks to yensuang also!! reminded us of our retro games!! we got quite crazy with it for a while hahas.

after leaving the T2147 at around 9.30pm. went home with Ivan, thank god got him. if not my trip will be super boring and painful.

Reach woodlands about 10.15pm and suddenly got this guy go approach me and talk random stuff. and then start asking for my number. rejected him also no use, stubborn guy keeps on talking and i cant run cos leg pain. *DAMN IT*. then his friend came. *i'm so dead meat, now how to out run 2 strong guys???!!*  they talk lots of crap, and forced me to gave my number or i can't go home =( nobody is there to help me T.T i hope they dont do anything weird..

Today is a very suay day... kk time to eat my dinner and help dad do some stuff. time to shut up.

adios

i wonder.... am i the first girl is this world who is totally ignored by her bf on their first valentine's day? even if it does clash with the chinese new year and he has to visit his relatives, while i went on a "date" with my girl-friends.

he doesn't even reply my sms, well it was meant to be a mass sending sms but still....
a reply would be nice. i feel so stupid, kept hoping for a miracle but nothing happened in the end.

finally at around 11+pm last night, he called me. not because he miss me or anything, it was because i was ignoring him on msn (i'm angry with him at the moment...) and he doesn't even sound apologetic at all, he sound like it just any other day.

i end the call pretty much like 5 mins later because i need to do something for my dad, and later on msn gave him the excuse that i'm going to sleep; i have no mood to entertain him (i have tried very hard to keep the disappointment out of my voice & messages, i don't want to ruin anybody else's day)

what am i suppose to do??? i don't want to ruin our relationship but i can't find any other way to let out my feelings so i decide to create this blog. anybody can help me???

prayers to god and thank you for answering my one prayer. i will remember what i promise thy. i will stay good from now on.

sincerely
upset=(